The Beauty of Christian Community

When something becomes familiar it can be easy to take for granted. When something becomes familiar it can seem to lose it's beauty.

I remember the day I moved to Memphis, it was on my 25th birthday. I wanted so badly to connect with others in Christ and to find true Christian community. I couldn't find it. It was so easy to find in college but once I was out of college it felt so hard to find. But out of that burden and desire the Young Adult Community at Hope Church was birthed. 

So I've been doing this job for 4 years now. And community has become familiar to me. The thing I used to long for, I can easily take for granted now.

But this week God has given me a new found appreciation for community. I have been able to step back and re-see, re-find and re-appreciate the value and beauty of Christian community.

Everyone wants to connect. Everyone wants to be known. Everyone wants to feel like they belong to something. That is the common denominator of everyone who walks through our doors. Everyone is in a different place spiritually and might be looking for different things in a church. But the desire to connect with others is the same.

When new people walk through those doors each week I just can't help but think about the potential that is before them to meet people and build relationships and friendships that may grow their faith and challenge them to a deeper desire to know Christ. I see potential for them to follow Jesus in new ways and to be used for his kingdom. I see potential for changed lives that will change lives. I see new opportunities to obey Jesus' greatest command: to love God and love others. I see opportunities to follow Jesus' last command: to go into all the world and make disciples. When people walk in the doors and encounter Jesus (through others, through worship, through teaching), I feel like I get to see God's kingdom come on earth.

I love getting to be a part of something like that. I LOVE connecting people to people and people to Christ. 

Over the past 4 years I've gotten to watch countless friendships and groups of friends develop. I've gotten to watch small groups form that study and grow in God's Word together. And I've gotten to see God bring relationships together where people are pushing each other towards Christ, learning to forgive, learning to love selflessly and learning to look past themselves. Some of those relationships will last the rest of their lives.

Maybe the beauty of what can happen in Christian community is that we get to taste what Jesus had in mind for us when he said, "I have come that they may have life and have it to the full." John 10:10

Maybe the beauty of what can happen in Christian community is that we get to be a part of the fruition of Jesus' prayers before he went to the cross, when he prayed, "that they may be one as we are one - I in them and you in me - so they may be brought to complete unity. Then the world will know that you have sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me." John 17:22-23

And... it's just fun!

The Beauty of the Gospel of Jesus

The Gospel is the most beautiful thing in the world. Jesus is the most beautiful person in the world.

Like when I stop and think about the Gospel and all the riches and treasures it contains, it truly amazes me. Even after all these years of "knowing" it and believing it, I've still barely scratched the surface. There's still so much to know of it and experience of it.

This is the beauty of Jesus to me:

That he would leave his home, that I may come into his home.

That he would lose his beauty in the sight of man, that I may become beautiful in the sight of God.

That he would suffer on the cross, that I may know him as my joy.

That he would be nailed down, that I may experience freedom in him.

That he would be rejected by his Father, that I may be accepted by his Father.

That he would lose his Father's presence in his most painful hour, that I may have His presence in every hour.

That he would die a painful death, that I may live an abundant life.

That he would take the punishment of everything I did wrong, that I may receive the reward of everything he did right.

That he who knew no sin would become sin, so that when God looks upon me he sees no sin. Instead, the righteousness of Jesus.

The extremes Jesus went to for me on the cross... It's full of grace, full of unfairness (in the best way), full of love, full of complete self-sacrifice. He gave away himself for me. Sometimes it's just good to let that soak in.

Passions, Hopes, Dreams on paper

Every 3-4 years I re-evaluate my passions, hopes, and dreams for my life. There is something SO powerful is being able to define those things and write them down. There is something even MORE powerful in going back and seeing how God fulfilled the dreams he has placed in my heart over the course of my 20's.

I dream big. I can't help it, most of the dreams and hopes are things that are impossible or sound too big for a girl like me. Like one of my dreams when I was 22 was to be a part of many cultures and nations and to learn many languages. So God took me to live in Spain and be deeply involved with the lives of the people there. I spent a year and a half diving into the culture and learning Spanish. My friends would take me to their hometowns where I got to experience the people, food, and traditions in ways beyond any tourist type experience. I was even on the local news a few times! haha! And He also took me to North Africa 7 times and I got to learn a little Arabic and learn that culture and about the Islam religion. I made Muslim friends and was able to share my faith with them many times. They even taught me a little French but then told me that I should never try to never learn French cause I had a really bad American accent. :)

I believe when we stop and listen and ask him, God places dreams in our hearts. January 2, 2006, four months until I would graduate college I wrote this:

"I feel hopeless in ever figuring out my calling, where to step, what direction to take. Deep inside there is the desire to aspire to greatness, to matter on this earth. I want to shift my perspective to stop trying to find how I can matter and just make others matter. Help others aspire. As I grow in finding God and wanting him more than any of this, he will take care of me. He will exceed my dreams himself."

And on May 5, 2006, a few days before I graduated college he formed those dreams as I began to write them down. They were vague in my heart, but he had specifics in his view that would only come to fruition through steps of faith, steps into much uncertainty by his leading.

After the fruition of many of those dreams from '06, God brought me to a place again in 2009 where he wanted me to consider new dreams, hopes and passions. I wrote them down again. And over the past 4 years he brought every single one of the 9 dreams and visions and hopes I wrote down to pass. One was, "to be a part of a movement a great work of God with and in this generation." And God allowed me to help start and lead a ministry for young adults in Memphis. Even in the course of working with the Young Adult Community he gave me dreams for the ministry and fulfilled them in great ways.

I have truly seen the faithfulness of God.

So just a few days ago, God led me to do this again. I have discovered new dreams, passions and hopes for my life that truly feel impossible and too big for me. That is how I know they are dreams from God. I wrote them down. My confidence and rest comes in remembering his faithfulness and fulfillment of so many big, impossible dreams I have seen God breath life into and bring to pass in such unconventional ways.

There is just something about defining your dreams and hopes for your life and writing them down on paper. I would've forgotten some of those things. And if I would've forgotten them, I wouldn't have experienced the faithfulness of God in the fulfillment of those things.

"Blessed is she who has believed that what the Lord has said to her will be accomplished!" Luke 1:45

Master Chef and The Christian Life

I was watching Master Chef the other night and something Chef Gordon Ramsay said like just cut to my heart and convicted me and challenged me in the deepest way. I haven't been able to stop thinking about those words for the past week.

They gave all the home cooks like these really expensive langostas (small lobster/crab type of things, apparently rare and expensive and served in nice restaurants). They had 60 minutes to take that and make a dish out of it. This one guy made a simple salad with some langostas on top. In the dramatic climax of the show the angry judges threw his salad in the trash and they were like what did you do with that whole hour?? Then he said it:

"We gave you the best, we only ask for the best from you."

And in my mind I'm imagining like, "What if at the end of life we all appear before the Judge with our dish, with what we made of our life, with what we did with the gospel? What will I bring to the table?"

God gave us the best, he gave us Jesus and this amazingly rich gospel and our lives. What am I gonna make of it, what am I gonna do with it? If he gave me his best am I giving my best back? Am I using my time wisely and using opportunities and ingredients and creativity to make some thing worth tasting?

I want to bring him a dish, a life that will make him proud. Like I want to take what he's given me and invest it and multiply it and make something beautiful of it. I don't want to bring a salad that only took 5 minutes out of the 60 that I was given. I want to bring an amazing dish that took work, creativity and shows off what He has given me. I want God to say, "I gave you my best and you gave your best back." I want to invest in people, love well, serve, give my self away, make disciples with a far-reaching impact, make an eternal impact on the lives of many people. I want to sow seeds of prayer and faith and reap a harvest. I want to bear much fruit, good fruit through remaining connected to the vine and living a life of obedience to him.

I felt recently I haven't been giving my best because I have been in a pit of self pity. And so I repented of that and I asked that my suffering and pain in life would become key ingredients in the work of my life and ministry that I will bring to his table at the end of my life.

I couldn't help but relate this to the parable that Jesus tells where the master gives talents to 3 servants and 2 of them multiply the talents but the last guy buries it to keep it safe. This is what the master says about the guy who played it safe and didn't multiply the investment (kinda like salad guy):

"Take the thousand and give it to the one who risked the most, And get rid of this "play-it-safe" who won't go out on a limb. Throw him into utter darkness." Matt 25:28-30 (msg). "Risk your life and get more than you ever dreamed of, play it safe and end up holding the bag" Luke 19: 26 (msg)

"You can either multiply your life or bury it" ~ my mom

Helping God

I was reading in Matthew 8-9 this morning. I was watching how many times Jesus responds to someone's faith. Like God doesn't move in their lives until he sees their faith. And so my instant reflex, is, "Okay, what am I going to do to show God my faith, so he will respond to it?"

So I start thinking of ways I can help God answer my prayers. How can I help Jesus act in line with what I want him to do?

But when I looked more closely, the faith he responds to isn't necessarily an act of faith, it is a heart of faith. Like with the Centurion, he came to Jesus to ask him to heal his paralyzed servant. Jesus says, "I will go and heal him." And the Centurion is like, "No, don't even worry about coming all that way, just say the word and it will be done. Just like when I give orders to the soldiers under me, I know they will do it." (paraphrase)

And it says Jesus was astonished at his faith. "I have not found anyone in Israel with such great faith." He didn't do anything to help Jesus, he just asked for Jesus to speak a word and he knew it could be accomplished. And so Jesus says, "Go! It will be done just as you believed it would.' And his servant was healed at that very hour." Matt 8:13

One interesting thing is that the Centurion didn't see the result of his faith until he got back. All he had for his journey home was the words of Jesus, telling him that it would be done. But he didn't know how Jesus would do it, he didn't know when Jesus would do it, and he didn't the see result right away.... even though it was accomplished that very hour.

Sometimes when we pray, he is working it out at that very moment, but we don't see the result right away. We just have a promise and his word to hold onto. Maybe he is responding to a heart of faith, but we just can't see the how, when, or result right away.

Right after I studied this passage, I read this in a devotional called, "Streams in the Desert":

"I once believed that after I prayed, it was my responsibility to do everything in my power to bring about the answer. Yet God taught me a better way and showed me that self-effort always hinders His work. He revealed that when I prayed and had confident trust in Him for something, he simply wanted me to wait in an attitude of praise and do only what He told me."

With the Centurion, the only thing Jesus told him to do was to "Go!" To go back home and there he would see the answer. Jesus didn't tell him to do anything that would help him accomplish the healing. On that journey home he just had to trust it was being accomplished.

"Sitting still, doing nothing except trusting in the Lord causes a feeling of uncertainty and there is often a tremendous temptation to take the battle into our own hands... Spiritual forces cannot work while we are trusting earthly forces."

Sometimes the greater act of faith is to do nothing rather than to do something that we think will help God out. And maybe in our doing nothing to help him, it forms a greater heart of faith.

An easy thing in the eyes of the Lord

When I run at the gym I watch all the people lifting weights. Whenever I see a really muscular person, my first thought is not, "wow they are so strong" my first thought is, "wow they have been through a lot of weakness."

I have 2 gym memberships (ha, I like them both, I couldn't pick just one!) In other words I pay money each month to become weak. I pay money for discipline. I pay money for exhaustion. I pay money to break down my body. After running an hour I sprint at the very end, it's really hard. When I'm done running my shirt is drenched in sweat, my face is red, my hair is wet, my body is weak. I do this to myself almost every day. Not what I would call pleasant.

I was thinking about this in relation to spiritual weakness. Nothing makes me feel more weak than an impossible situation before me. Nothing makes me feel more weak than waiting on God to do something that feels impossible.

God says to endure these hard seasons as discipline, as training. "God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness... No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful." Hebrews 12:10-11. I wouldn't describe that last sprint or that last rep or that last push up as pleasant.... but painful. Yet again, I pay money for it.

So I was thinking, why do I resist God's discipline in times of spiritual weakness? Why do I resist entering into the pain, suffering and weakness of trusting him when it's so hard? Is God not using that to tone, define, mold and strengthen my spiritual self? Isn't this of more value than what I am doing every day at the gym? On top of that.. his discipline is free ha.

I was reading about an impossible situation today in 2 Kings 3. And here is what God said about it through his prophet Elisha, "This is an easy thing in the sight of the Lord..."2 Kings 3:18. I just fell in love with this verse and read it over and over.

What you see as impossible, God sees as easy. And that is so comforting to know and believe in the midst of those kind of trials.

But maybe the reason God waits to do this "easy thing" for you is to allow you to become weak, to break you down, which in turn builds you up and makes you stronger than before. Even though these moments are painful. "Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it." Hebrews 12:11

If we can see from God's perspective, we see that there is more going on. That God cares about how he is molding us. And that really it's for our good and that we may share in his holiness. Though it's not pleasant now, it produces peace later.

If we can see from God's perspective we can endure AND we can rest in the difficulty of our situation, because "it is an easy thing in the eyes of the Lord."

Savoring

Some people eat. Some people taste.

Some people endure life. Some people enjoy life.

I don't want to endure, I want to enjoy. We can choose goodness in life, of life. We don't have control of anything that happens to us, but we can control the perspective we choose to view life by.

To savor means, "to give oneself to the enjoyment of."

I want to savor life. I want to savor moments. I want to savor God. I want to choose to see all the things in my life as something that is a gift and give myself to the enjoyment of it. For example, I can choose to see my job as something I have to do. Or I can see my job as something I get to do.

And it's true with every other area of life. Even the problems. I can either see it as a gift cause it's shaping me into the image of Christ, so I will rejoice in my sufferings. Or I can see it as a burden, so I will complain and wish it away.

To enjoy, to experience to the fullest means to finalize and seal the enjoyment with PRAISE. To savor completely is to praise God. To see the beauty in situations, in experiences, and in other people, in the now, in the moment, in the present and thank God for it.

CS Lewis says, "All enjoyment spontaneously flows into praise... You, see we love to praise things we enjoy because praise is not just the expression of that joy, but also the completion of it. Our praise for God must overflow out of our joy in God. To praise God is to enjoy him to the fullest."

I can enjoy, savor, and delight in God when I believe that he delights in me.

We see this is true when we look to the cross, where Jesus exchanged his place of enjoyment in God for a place of suffering apart from God... for us. So that we could have the free, yet costly gift of salvation. And with that comes the choice to delight in, to enjoy and to savor life in Christ with God.